Our brain is a funny thing. It tends to match events with certain emotions. This can be good….and it can be a real pain.
Most readers don’t know this but my first symptoms of illness that led to meningitis occurred in an airplane – one that I was piloting alone. April 1st, 2011 I realized one of my dreams in my ‘bucket list’ – that is, to fly an aircraft solo. I have been dreaming of learning how to fly since I was a little kid. Later that same month I was on my fourth solo training flight when I started to feel really lousy. I landed the aircraft early – and when I took my headset off – I was completely deaf in my left ear. Three days later I was in hospital and……well, you know the story.
So back to neuro-associations. Meningitis, as you can imagine was a trial to say the least. I have a new definition for “pain”. In the early days of recovery I replayed the events of realizing I was deaf, getting really sick, losing my vision etc. I replayed it over and over again – and the story starts with me flying…and so I developed a connection between flying and misery. Repetition (reliving the story over and over again) and intensity are two of the factors that make up a neuro-association.
How we think has a huge effect on our health.
On one hand I wanted to go back to flying and on the other hand, the very thought of it would make my ear ache, my heart race and even a bit nauseous. Today I broke through the cycle of fear and went flying…..it was freakin’ awesome.
Was it a risk? Sure. My intellect tells me that the likelihood of getting sick after flying again is silly. My heart told a different story. Either I was willing to take the risk of repeating the illness and regain a love of flying OR remain captive to a fear.
F.E.A.R. False Evidence that Appears Real. Another author wrote that our fears are images being projected onto a screen made of mist. As soon as you step into your fear – it vaporizes. It’s true. I went flying and it was freakin’ awesome.



